Monday, February 28, 2011

Who inspires you?

Yes that is a question many times we are asked and we have asked ourselves.  For me it can be my amazing husband or my beautiful little girls and other times it is my mom.  She taught me so much about strength and love but she also did unfortunately teach me to not always put myself first.  I am not saying this is a bad thing.  She just always put her kids and then grand kids and then any family member that needed it FIRST over herself.  She had a great life but I do wonder what could have been if she would have put her self first just a little bit more.  I do it too.....I usually put Rob first because he works so hard for our family and he has given me more than I could ever ask for.  But now that we have the girls they come first and then Rob and then probably the dogs and then me.  Don't get me wrong this isn't a rant about poor me and how great I am.  That is far from the truth.  This is just me saying I am so thankful my mom taught me to take care of those I love and try to do right by those who love me.  I do know I do need to sometimes stop and say NO!  It is my time and that is that.  But let's be honest, I will only do it when I am at my wits ends and need a break.  So I guess all I need to ask myself is "Who does inspire me and why?".  Right now I need to focus on my mom as my inspiration....along with the good of that and the bad.  I need to find the balance of giving and loving my family to inspire them to do the same but I also need to love myself enough to take time for myself to show my daughters there is a healthy balance.  If you knew my mom you knew she was many times "All or Nothing".  When she did something that is all she concentrated on and did it until she and the rest of us were overwhelmed by it.  How many crochet items did one really need.  lol  I too have this issue at times.  I want it 110% perfect or I just don't want to deal with it.  I need to find balance so that the inspiration my mom has taught me can flourish but the inspiration I want my daughters to see can thrive in them.  I know this will be something I will deal with all my life.  But I guess my question is to you "Who inspires you and why?".

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