Accountability

Accountability is just one of those words that can mean so much.  I have come to realization that I need to be honest and say I need to be accountable to someone else to some degree at least for awhile.  I was so proud of myself the other night when I reached for the grapefruit at 3am (needing to pump) instead of those darn cute and yummy chocolate teddy grahms from TJ's.  Hey they are low fat and all but the grapefruit was the better choice.  =-)  But when it comes to my workouts I am biting the bullet and contacting my trainer again.  I do love my workout video and all but with having 2 little ones to deal with doesn't always give me the time I need.  It isn't the most fun to have to stop in the middle of your workout to nurse and then try and jump right back in and finish.  So Liz will be getting an email and I will be getting my butt back in a routine.  Mindy hasn't had any issues with being at the daycare at the club and Lindsey doesn't ever want to leave....so it is time for more than the mid morning DVD and to get serious.  I feel like I am at the teetering point.  That point where you just back slide or you start going full tilt.  I want the full tilt.  I love pushing myself at things I never thought I could/would do.  I have lost a few more pounds but it still isn't enough.  I want to be at that point where I am on auto pilot.  I was almost there last year about this time and then a little something was brewing in my tummy so that all changed.  So here I am again a year later wanting to get to the point where I don't even think twice about doing my workout where I crave it and it won't be a second thought to grab the grapefruit instead of those yummy little cookies.  So Liz I am going to be a calling and just so you know I need to be accountable to you for now and eventually to me.